A new beginning, somewhat — like in all school semesters.

It’s nice to always have that time to pull yourself out of the space, and then go back into it to re-start if you ever so wish yourself to; which is what I’d done.

“Zero Expectation”- mode has been nothing but exhilarating. Many things have happened unexpectedly in this past 2 weeks. It’s quite amazing, how I’ve managed to breeze through it, assuring myself that I should not overthink anything. Let’s just do what we can within that time frame, to be as kind as possible to all around, especially to myself.

I’m happy that I’ve managed to break some of the walls; even if they are my own. I’m so glad I’ve been able to feel closer to a few people, especially those seated around me. It’s nice to have someone to acknowledge or banter with randomly, even in short spurts. It finally feels “homely” where my desk is. I enjoy getting back to it, when they are around. The days when they’re having their day off, I do feel a little lonely, but I learn to get by and focus on other things. It’s quite an amazing feeling. That feeling of comfort.

Surprisingly, unexpectedly as well, one chose to converse in person after what seems like a long time. It’s pretty amazing how we could converse as if nothing had happened in between. This is what I’d meant by chemistry — and I was right about it, after all. That sense of comfort, felt as if we’d known each other from a long time before. Like, how many people could you actually chat with so naturally, just like that, despite the long lull? I can count them off my hand.

I’m just happy the way I am now, and the way things are at the moment. I look forward to more happy surprises.

Let’s keep the “zero expectation” mindset going, and hope for peaceful, happy, cheery days always. We can get through difficult things with positivity, too. We just need the right people and support around, when the going gets too tough.